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At a blank piece of paper and nothing comes out. How do I make the pencil start drawing? Why are all my ideas bad? Why can't I draw unless I'm depressed / sad / angry / hurt? Why if there is no despair there is no muse? Why when I want to get back to my art the most I can't seem to be able to?

It's been a while. Since I've been here, since I drew... But I'm coming back. slowly but surely. dA and art in general hold a lot of meaning to me, so I'm not letting go of them so easily. So prepare to see a lot more from me soon.

So in three weeks time I will be going to Washington D.C. to work at a summer camp for two month!!! Yay! I'm really exited....! Also, I think that things are begining to work out for me. I don't know exactly how but it just feels that way. I'm very optimistic today......... Ahhhh If anyone read my journal entry titled "Either very brave of very foolish" then that guy from that entry is about to become my new "boss" sort of.... We are on very good term and I am happy with the choice taht was made to put him as head of my unit thingy... though I can't help feeling a little weird about if for obviouse reasons.... oh well.... all will